disgust me

has anyone been following the news lately?
and by news i mean cnn, bbc, or democracy now... unless you have some other reputable news source that im not aware of.

i find the state of the gaza/israel conflict to not only be gut-wrenching, but also completely ridiculous. AND, to add to the heinous actions of the israelis on the palestinians living in that area, the united states, the biggest FUCKING superpower of the world, refuses to take action and instead stands next to israel as its ally.

the gaza strip is less than one third the size of los angeles. imagine your city with a fence around it, then add heavy artillery shelling coming at you from the city next door. you try to escape but all routes are blocked. your family and friends are dying around you but there arent enough medical supplies to stop the rampant death toll. the enemy military finally agrees to a brief cease-fire, delivering leaflets advising you to get out of your house and go to a safe shelter, only to have them bomb that very shelter the next day, killing hundreds of your fellow refugees inside. all you have to defend yourself are shitty homemade missiles with hardly the capability of hitting an exact target.

where is the humanity in this? where is the SANITY in this? EIGHT israelis (as far as i know) have been killed, versus at least 765 in gaza. i understand that hamas is considered a terrorist organization, but israel is attacking defenseless innocent civilians with nowhere to go. whats worse is that the obama administration shows no sign of changing its position after the appointment of Rahm Emanuel as the chief of staff.

tell me the future

now that the semester is over, i actually feel at ease to draw things for the sake of drawing... not just because the drawing nazis forced me to.

a chilly evening

tonight the bay is a symphony of foghorns.

dan, dan, dan.

missing you

holler

12/14/07
the semester ended yesterday, what a relief. i kicked ass on all four of my finals... in fact, i think i did better on my finals than i did on the majority of my previous tests.

im coming down with something quite unlike what i usually get when the weather turns this cold. although i definitely prefer the slight sinus pressure to the aching throat it replaced, the intense sense of melancholy is all but pleasant.

in reality i cannot blame the afore mentioned melancholy as a result of this baby illness. it would be more accurate to factor in my inability to feel stable or to settle into life as it is in any sort of fashion. i willingly walk into situations that not only have friends and family advised against, but both voices in my head as well.

morning 6 chicago

ah the comforts of home. well, someone else's home.
spent the night with friends paul and eevin last night, who i used to spend a lot of time with when they lived in oceanside. damn i missed their ferrets. oh and them too.
we had a party last night, too. after mingling with a good sampling of what this chicago suburb has to offer, i can conclude... or perhaps theorize... that these people were fed too much corn as babies. its all right though, nice people really. however, all they would drink was miller light, wouldnt touch the gernerous supply of booze we had. OH and i dont remember the last time i was surrounded by so many virgins. MALE virgins. kinda cute, kinda sad.

tonight is the qwel/blak watr/vast aire show! the event of the week! the event of a lifetime! the event about which CenterStage Chicago says, "make sure you don't have anything important to do on Sunday morning." and i am V.I.P. for that shit. cannot freaking wait.

tomorrow is my last day in this fare state of illinois, so i really hope i get to go to the chicago art institute museum tomorrow. and see downtown chicago today. i really havent done enough while ive been here since my friends are lazy asses. luckily paul and eevin understand the importance of showing a girl a good time :)